I have not posted recently as I have been going through the hardest battle I have ever been through in my life. I am trying to keep myself stable but I feel like I am falling apart.
My nan passed away peacefully in her sleep in hospital. She was not in pain and had all of her family around her in her last moments. She had a few last words but one of which was ‘I have the most amazing family’. Truth is, I had the most amazing nan. She was like a second mum to me and helped raise me.
I wrote her a little poem this morning that I am going to read out at her funeral.
I want to tell you that I miss you
But I’d need to tell you so much more
I love you every single day of my life
And now my heart is broken and sore
I want to write about our ups and downs
And how much you always cared
I feel you all around me now
I’m flooded with the memories we shared
I don’t know if there is an afterlife
So I hope you’re with grandma in peace
I hope and pray that Pepsi is there too
And I’m writing this as a release
I know we didn’t always get on
But that doesn’t take away my love
Each day that passes is like a nightmare
I pray you see our strength from above