Alcohol could be my downfall

I cannot for the life of me figure out if alcohol is where I went wrong. Maybe I have figured it out already but I do not want to admit to it. Maybe it was just a coincidence, but I may never know.

Before being admitted to hospital I was drinking heavily one week prior. I am not much of a drinker, but where alcohol is concerned, something always goes wrong.

My nan had recently passed away and I was using alcohol (and weed) as a coping mechanism. I was drinking and then taking overdoses once I had drank. I would never (or so I think) have taken that overdose if I was not drunk.

Fast forward to a few hours after discharge from hospital and I am thinking to myself ‘maybe a prosecco would be rewarding right now’. A part of me knows this could be a bad idea.

However I do not feel depressed and I do not feel manic. So would alcohol in moderation be such a bad idea?

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