So the last time I went outside was to receive my depo injection from the depo clinic. I had gone 48 hours without sleep and I was wired on coffee. It is safe to say I was as high as a kite.
When I arrived at the depo clinic I was overwhelmed and could not go inside. I felt like everyone was looking at me and thought my legs were going to cave in. I was rambling a lot and even went a bit off the rails in front of the nurse from the depo clinic.
However when I got myself out today I did not have a public meltdown, for once. I got myself to a work meeting and held my cool. I did not only hold my cool but I felt cool and collected. I was a tad buzzed on coffee, but nothing over the top.
After this I actually got on a train and went all the way to the outskirts of the city centre (in a different city than the one I live in) and visited my friend in hospital. It was a good day to be completely honest and it actually felt good getting outside.
I did panic a little and end up skipping the 45 minute train home due to it being rush hour. Unfortunately for me that costed me a good £70 in a taxi. However I still feel like I handled going outside quite well, considering my previous public meltdown.