During my first manic episode I experienced no hallucinations. I did not lose touch with reality. I was elated and going at 100mph but that is about it.
However somewhere along the line I became very paranoid about being haunted. In response to this I decided to do the ouija board to get to the bottom of it. Now I don’t remember this episode very well as it is a blur to me, but I do remember that the ouija board moved by itself. It was the first and only time I had ever experienced such a thing.
After this point I developed what the experts called delusions and hallucinations. I was being haunted by a ghost named Ben, the ghost I communicated with using the ouija board. He told me to do things and act on certain impulses.
I want given treatment in the form of an antipsychotic which erased the delusions and hallucinations I was experiencing. However since using the ouija board my life has been one train wreck after another. I have all of these bad impulses and thoughts, as though the antipsychotic erases the ability to hear Ben, but he still lives on inside my head. As a demon.
I am not saying I do not have a mental illness. What I am saying is that I messed with dark arts and there is a high chance that a demon is slowly but surely destroying my chance at happiness and a stable life.
I have no idea where to go from here. I have now downloaded the bible app on my iPhone which I will read nightly. I have ordered myself three rosary beads in order to protect myself from the potential demon I released using the ouija board.
There is a fine line between mental illness and demonic possession. While I do believe I have a mental illness, I do believe that I have crossed that line by messing with the ouija board and now I am paying the price.